well the repair was a ton worse than the first day, who knew...
(warning: graphic-not for the queezy)
many told me that the moh's procedure did not hurt them. they must be really strong and brave. lol. my actual procedure the first day took off a little bit bigger than a silver dollar's worth of skin, around. the second day (repair) cut an incision above and below the 'circle' and stretched the skin towards my ear to suture. 3 layers of stitches. the 2 underneath will dissolve in 3-4 months. the one layer on the surface will dissolve in a week-or so I'm told.
during the actual procedure I was very nervous, of course. The first day I took a valium they gave, but they had me dissolve it underneath my tongue, and it tasted so bad I almost cried. lol. So the second day I refused the valium but took my regular anti-anxiety med that I take. Well I should have taken 2 or 3 I think because my anxiety was awful. Almost panic attack state like. The 2nd day procedure/repair actually took around 20 mins I'd say. I did not see a clock, but it felt about that long. The doc was very good, tried to talk to me the whole time to distract me. No pain, but lots of pulling and pressure. tugging a lot on my poor face.
After that they took me to a 'recovery area' to sit, get my bearings and drink some cold water. I just broke down at that point, crying so hard. I asked for my husband to be brought back. The tears kept coming. I was very emotional. Long story. But I have PTSD and trauma from childhood. I get triggered pretty easily right now-I'm in therapy for this but it's a slow process. Anyways, I think I was telling the nurse a bit about it. I was sort of out of it, delusional like. I feel embarrassed now but am OK with it. -I should really write a book about it lol.
Anyways, I go back in a week for my recheck. The stitches will dissolve on their own-thank God.
I have very little family to help me in town. My mom is on a trip to China for 3 weeks. My dad just had his prostate surgery today as well. So my sis is helping him, as she lives with him. so it's just me and my husband. He works graveyard, so he sleeps during the day. I was feeling very sorry for myself yesterday (it's 2:24 a.m. now) but I'm ok now. Well emotionally I am better, but physically I am in a lot of pain. lots. I called the doc just now and he said I could take 2 of the hydrocodone and 2 ibuprofen w/o risking bleeding out. Like I said, I've been kind of in a delusional state, so I did not realize the bottle said I could take 2 . I was only taking 1.
well I better end here. I already wrote a book.
thank you to all you lovely bloggers who commented so nicely and reached out and emailed me about my 'ordeal'. big hugs!
more updates later today...
